Haven't been writing in blog for some time, so i guess i better write sometime before my mei starts to complaint...
Life hasn't been a bed of rose for me lately. I just don't know how to start writing all of this? Maybe shouldn't write this at all but this is my blog, so i guess i can write whatever crap i wish right? hehe
Maybe i should start off by writin something that is the closest to my heart. For the first time, silly bear didn't talk to xiao zhu despite being in singapore for the past few days i guess? I really don't know what to say to her. We had a heated conversation earlier this week and it didn't really left me yet. I guess she matters quite a lot to me and i've never ever intended in my sanity to hurt her in any way.
I was feeling that the CG wasn't at all helping me. Instead of like agreeing with me, she turned around and "scolded" me. To be frank, i got a shock in the beginning! I guess i wasn't myself at that point of time.
well, thinking about what she said, i have to agree that i didn't play my part for my Cell Group and giving excuses wasn't what a mature christian shoulld aspire to do. I've though about it and will give myself another chance to try to get back in God's intended plan for me.
Jesus, i thank you for no giving me on me. I repent right now and seek for your forgiveness and mercy. Help me Jesus to beecome more like you. It hasn't been easy for me for the past week and i pray that your grace is sufficent for me and i trust on your word and the holy spirit. I pray these in Jesus mighty name, AMEN!!!
Jesus, here i come! i rebuke the Devil and want to live in God's ways. No one should stop me! :)
Silly Bear stood out at 10:18 pm
Today, silly bear got back from KL... Haiz supposed to be an happy event for xiao zhu but it didn't quite turn out as intended...
well, cannot blame her totally. I mean what do you expect when someone you like tells you that someone else likes him... err... i guess she wasn't quite strong a girl yet.?? anyway, i hope she understands eventually.
I was chatting with a secondary school classmate, Puay sien. Then suddenly, she popped the question of being together. I have to confess that there was once some chemisty between us but that was way back into the past.
I was so shocked that i posted it onto xiao zhu window to share the shock that i received, BUt i think xiao zhu was kinda like sadden and became defensive so... Haiz
let's talk about something on alighter note. My trip to KL was a relatively short one. I guess i enjoyed myself to a certain extent. Well, got myself a couple of t-shirts and had some nice food over there. But. haiz... gain several kgs... so got to work on that few pounds.
Anyway, i'm glad to be back in my room, where i can access into the net and my friends. Guess that's all for now. Good night
Silly Bear stood out at 12:57 am
